Saturday, July 28, 2007

My Miscarriage Recovery- betas to period

Click on the above link to get to my chart post miscarriage. It's the chart that starts on 6.25.07 at for the pregnancy of 9 weeks.

Post Miscarriage Beta:

6/25/07 (Day of miscarriage) Beta: 432

7/02/07 (One week post m/c) Beta:220

7/09/07 (Two weeks post m/c) Beta:48

7/11/07 I finally tested negative on a HPT that is sensitive to 10-50 mIU.

Post miscarriage bleeding:

I bled and spotted for 16 days after the miscarriage. I stopped for about a week. Then I started spotting again for a day and passed a piece of retained tissue.

My period started 34 days after the natural miscarriage. My doctor does not hold to the 20 day rule about no bleeding or spotting.

Post miscarriage ovulation:

I believe that I ovulated 20 days after the miscarriage. I got a positive OPK and red streaked EWCM. In fact the EWCM was more than I had ever seen before. I had one good temp shift but then my temps were up and down to my coverline. I believe that I did ovulate but my progesterone was still falling from the pregnancy. This was obviously not a good or strong ovualtion. My period started 13 days later.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Perhaps they are not stars in the sky...

"Perhaps they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy."

I found this angel at a Hallmark store. It really called out to me. I brought the angel home and showed Christopher. We hugged and cried together. I feel like this was a turning point in our grief. More of a step forward towards healing.

I also bought a yellow memory box. Inside I put some flowers from the arrangement that Mom had sent along with the cards from Grandma and my aunt. Also I put other small rembrances of the pregnancy. This is my memorial to my baby.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Good night, sweet angel baby.

It's not a beautiful poem. It's just written to help me get my pain out. I think of it as my lullabye to my baby.

Good night, sweet angel baby.
You're too beautiful for this earth,
So God welcomed you above.
My heart aches from the loss.
But you'll always be a part of me.

Good night, sweet angel baby.
This poor mortal world is not fit for you.
So in heaven you'll find your home.
My arms are empty today,
But I hold you safe in my heart.

Good night, sweet angel baby.
Learn to sing and dance with the angels.
Make a joyful sound in heaven,
And I'll smile when I hear your song.
You'll always be my angel baby.

Good night, sweet angel baby.
One day in heaven above, I'll hold you in my arms.
I'll hold you tight, heart to heart.
And we'll never be parted again.

Good night, my sweet angel baby.
Mommy misses you.
Your name is written in the tears streaming down my face.
Good night, good night.