I'm already not a good mommy?

I had my follow up OB appointment after the heavy bleeding two weeks ago. Since then I passed a clot and had some faint spotting that same day. Nothing else to report since that time except for a lot of anxious nervous nelly feelings.

The intake nurse asked me if I had anything new since my last appointment. I told her about passing the clot and spotting. She immediately asked if I went to the emergency room or had an ultrasound. That really threw me and made me feel like I wasn't being a good mommy already! That's just silly, but still, that's what I thought.

I know there's nothing they can do if God forbids something happened to the baby. And there's really no sense in going to the ER for some spotting. I've had a natural miscarriage at 9 weeks. I know the drill.

I told the intake nurse that I had called Lynn, my OB's nurse on the Monday after the spotting. She wasn't too concerned since the bleeding stopped immediately and told me that she would pass on the info to the doctor. I never heard anything more of it so I decided we would just have to wait until this week's appointment.

My OB came in and asked how I was doing. I told him that I was nervous and about the spotting. He immediately said, "Let's do an ultrasound!" Relief. I was concerned about him trying the doppler first. I was afraid that we wouldn't be able to find the heartbeat via the doppler because of my weight and tilted uterus. Plus at 10 weeks 6 days, it's still early yet.

The ultrasound tech was off today so my OB did the scan himself. The baby looks good! The doctor said he wasn't familar with the new machine so he didn't try to take any measurements. But we did get to hear the heartbeat and the baby looks like a baby instead of a shrimp!

My doctor reassured me about work. He asked if I was still traveling and for now I'm going to continue doing it until sometime in May. I'm really ready to transfer to a different position that doesn't involve me working 12 hours a day and being gone 5 days a week.

I have my NT scan April 18. It looks like Chris will be out of state for the NT scan. So that will probably be a stressful appointment to do alone.